On another note, I had an awesome dream about Sydney last night. I dreamed that we were down in Bloomington walking around campus. She was older...maybe the age she would be now...13 months. She was just learning how to give kisses. I was carrying her on my right hip through the student union and she just kept giving me kisses. It was a very sweet dream...very vivid, and I loved every moment of it.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Bad Blogger
Sorry I have been slacking on writing anything lately...our lives have been turned upside down and I just feel like I haven't been able to get my head on straight. The last few weeks have been very foggy for me. I have a million things on my to-do list and I just can't find the motivation to do any of them. It is so hard to get motivated when you don't know what your purpose is in life. I used to find purpose and fulfillment by being a supportive wife, an active employee, a contributing member to society and a loving mother. All but one of those has been taken from me and I just don't know how to get back on track. I thought maybe I need to find my purpose somewhere else, but I don't know where to start. I need some direction.
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Wish I could give you a big hug in person, but this will have to do. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog for a while now and have never posted a comment, but I'm one of the MoMs from the MoMs board. I had to share something my husband told me. After my daughters were born I had a dream where my grandmother, who passed away 2 years ago, got to meet one of my girls. My husband told me that he believed when you saw a loved who is no longer with you in a dream that it is really them coming to see you. So I got to spend time with my daughter and grandma and you with Sydney. It always makes me feel happy to believe that.
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for awhile now...I used to lurk on the nest and somehow found your blog but this is my first comment. I just want to say that I am so happy you had a lovely dream and I pray you have a gazillion more.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got a few kisses from your baby. I'll bet they were some of the best kisses you've ever received. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteWhat a precious, precious dream.
ReplyDeleteI pray you find a new sense of purpose. (((HUGS)))
Hi Brooke -
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog. I'm sorry you are still having such a bad time. I don't know if you know but I lost a daughter. Whe was born with Angelmans Syndrome and she choked on a balloon when she was almost 6. I don't dream of her very often, but when I do it is SO special and so vivid and real, just like someone else said it is truly like a visit from her.
Treasure your dreams & memories :)
Kathy Williams