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I haven't written in a very long time. I am ashamed.

But today has been different somehow. Today, missing the girls hit me like a ton of bricks. It is hard to describe, but all of a sudden, I just felt so lost. I felt so broken. Usually I can pinpoint what sets me off and brings these feelings to me, but today I don't know what has done it. The constant ache that sits in the back of my heart for them somehow jumped to the front and shoved every other thought and feeling out of me. It is consuming me and I just don't know where to go with it.

It's strange; I have gone through over a year of therapy trying to relearn how to live my life and yet these moments still stop me in my tracks. And while it hurts so so bad, there is almost a comfort inside of me too. I'm comforted to know that I'm not forgetting them and that I still miss them and I still hurt for them. But most of all, I still love them.